The past few weeks I have been struggling immensely with finding peace, finding joy and finding my purpose.
Staying home with my girls is what I know I’m supposed to do and what I know is best for our family, and ninety percent of the time it’s where my heart is, too.
It’s on those other 10 percent of the days when I struggle, though, and it seems like I had a long string of those tough days thanks to sick babies and bitterly cold weather which left us all cooped up and on top of one another with a little too much togetherness.
Lots of prayers, tears and listening to God has given me an amazing clarity about it all, and this is the first of a series of blog posts about having a heart on fire for God even when you’re drowning in the deep end with taking care of your family and yourself. (I hope all moms, stay at home and working, can find some encouragement because I think we are all in the deep end with our every day lives.)
Let me share this with you first, though. I have never seen myself as someone who should share her spiritual journey. Although I am passionate about serving my Lord, I feel like my journey isn’t one which will be the basis for a book on how to be close to God. It is so hard for me to make time to read my Bible or complete a Bible study or do all of those “things” I feel like define a strong relationship with our God, and I don’t feel worthy to share anything about my spiritual life with others because I feel like I have so much growing left to do.
I am just an average mom who hates housework, isn’t very crafty, and has no shame about skipping a shower to snuggle a sick baby for a day or two. But I love God and my family with all of my heart, and I want to find a way to be on fire for my God every single day.
Through my feelings of inadequacy and struggles, God has been whispering to me to try, to listen, to share my journey and my struggles and sit back and see what He can do. So that’s what this new series, A Heart on Fire, will be about.
I’d love to have you join me on this journey. We all need a little more hope and joy each day!